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Mar. 29th, 2006 @ 08:47 pm (no subject)
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Everyday goes by and I think that the various movements for prolife and for anti gay marriage cannot become any stupider. And then they go ahead and prove me wrong. Case in point, the above image. That monstrosity is a statue entitled " Monument to prolife: The birth of sean preston "...featuring none other then britney spears giving birth on a bear skin rug. What in fucks name is this? I can understand the prolife's stance, I can empathize, but where in the hell does this dignify the cause in anyway? First off, lets just start with the pose. I don't know that much about childbirth but I do know that it does not involve sexily posing on bearskin rugs! She would be crying out in anguish if she were actually popping out her kid in that scene. She'd be clutching the bear skin rug and screaming for drugs. In this pose, she looks like she's waiting for kevin to see if you really can have sex after the third trimester. She looks like she's waiting for him to ride her cowboy style. And what in the hell would anyone be doing giving birth on a bearskin rug in the first place? " Oh honey, I love our bear skin rug in the living room. It's so soft. And we screw there all the time...I want to give birth on it!". That'll be a conversation piece. Does anyone have a clue how disgusting childbirth can be?? there is blood, afterbirth, umbilical cords, fluid, and nastyness. There are REASONS why we have people give birth in nice clean rooms with plenty of towels and cloths to clean up the MESS. child birth is not the soft gentle happy thing people portray it as. It's somethiing the size of a goddamn watermellon being shoved through something the size of a nasal cavity. Does that SOUND like fun to you? If you want to experience it, from what I understand, you can get the same feeling by going to a store and shoving a coconut up your ass. Jesus mother of christ. And now lets talk about britney as a spokes person for prolife. From the musical genius that brought us the song " Hit me baby one more time" Comes a statement on prolife. This would be the equivalent of Ron Jeremy promoting abstinence. I am sorry, but Britney spears herself is a case for abortions to be legal...so when stupid ass teenagers get pregnant, we can do something about it without putting more money into the welfare system. Mother of fucking christ. Does this woman even THINK when she does stuff? Who the fuck allowed her to breed. Why can't we systematically remove the uteris of every female that has an iq less then 90. Why can't we remove kevin's breeding organs as well. God. In ten years we can use those two for the argument for abstinence or at least having required breeding licensing since their kid will probably be so god awful stupid that we will realize certain componets of the gene pool do need some bleach. Fuckfuck fuck fuck fuck! this just makes me angry. God I hate stupid people who support any cause.
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Dec. 25th, 2005 @ 10:14 am Christmas Time
Current Mood: thankful
Well, another year has come and gone. The turkey is in the oven and doesn't smell too bad...My friend morgan is sleeping in the bedroom as he only got 4 hours of sleep last night. Ivan is at work though I pick him up in 2 hours. Right now I'm watching the Ghost buster's movie, thinking about peeling potatoes and how to manage warming up the rolls. It's not been a bad year over all. Some days and weeks have been hard but we've accomplished a lot in a year. We are on our own, and I have a promotion to a sup. It's not a high level job,but no longer am I on the bottom of the totem. Hopefully I'll get a decent raise and be at a livable salary. That would be lovely. Then we can pay off debts, and plan for the future. I sometimes forget that I am only 24. We've got many many years ahead of us to do things, and I hope some year soon we will have kids to share this with, plus be able to go home and see the parents. Things are getting better every year, I just hope they keep going this way and that we'll have more happy memories.
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Dec. 15th, 2005 @ 04:50 pm O.o
Current Mood: surprised
Well another new development in my life is me being placed as a sup at the call center I work at. That is a new trip. Basically my job requires me to monitor the performance of 18 people, their stats, communicate with them, do paperwork and all sorts of other stuff, plus on occassion take calls (when demanded to). Also..it's a job that requires I know excel, which is a weird ass beast of a software program. This is going to be a fascinating month. I think I'll also start posting more on my live journal, just for shits and giggles. People better start reading it...or ELSE!
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Dec. 4th, 2005 @ 06:56 pm day off
Current Mood: depressed
this is one of those days that I feel like i don't want to ever have a day off ever again. I just want to stay at work and not think about anything else other then making money and just filling my hours with nothing. Today was not the best day. i'm trying to get into the niche of being an st on another chat and i'm just thinking probably I should quit now. All I really wanted was to have someone acknowledge what I was saying and to see my point of view but apparently that is wrong. I'm tired of that kinda shit really. I'm really just tired of having to try and try and try and try and get shot down. I feel like this is all for nothing lately and that I really don't have much of a future with anything. I'm not sure what this all means, but I had to get it off my chest before I did something really stupid.
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Sep. 30th, 2005 @ 11:37 am (no subject)
The Wayward Heart
- You Are The Wayward Heart

"Feel Better."


You are best described as 'Emotional Support'.
Anytime an emotional issue comes up or
something stresses people out, you are there to
help them feel better about it. Whether you are
the prankster of the bunch, the funny one, the
wild one, or just the shoulder to cry on - your
traits favor what it takes to keep people
going. You like large groups of people and have
many friends. When something hits home for you,
however, you have a hard time with it. You also
have difficulty paying attention or focusing on
one thing. Above all, though, if people are
happy, you are happy.


Which Classic Story Role Do You Play?
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Sep. 16th, 2005 @ 11:24 pm Cause this band deserves more attention
Current Mood: hyper
Check out a band called "Normal Like you" Guys. It rocks. Here is the lyrics for one of their songs. They have kinda a brash off kilter sound..that is some how rockingly melodic.


NORMAL LIKE YOU LYRICS

"Self-Conscious Significance"

This time I've gone too far
take back the things I've said
I'm always wanting more
why do I end up with less? [x3]

why do I end up with less of
what seems to be all of the person
that I'm trying to be for you im tryin to be for you.
And it's damn hard but I'll carry on cuz'
I need your support and I need you to care
cuz' I'm nothing without you im nothing without u yeah..

I'll fold
I'm done [x6]

I hate how I make you cry
self conscious significance
push all those tears aside
why do I end up with less?

why do I end up with less of
the simple satisfaction of the time we've spent together
the answer to this is
myself how I can't keep it together
will my selfishness get better?
someday I'll get better yeah..

I'll fold
I'm done [x10]

Take back the things i said
why do i end up with less
I hate how I make you cry
why do i end up with less
self conscious significance

Take back the things i said
why do i end up with less
I hate how I make you cry
why do i end up with less
self conscious significance

I'll fold and I'm done
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Aug. 23rd, 2005 @ 07:14 pm A Plea to Online RPers and Java chats everywhere
Current Mood: enraged
Okay folks, I hope if your an online gamer, you will pass this along. Let people read my live journal to get this...And If I get flame for it ....so be it. But recent activity online has made me feel the need to post this and get it off my chest before the stupidity of the situation rots my brain.

The topic of tonight is Java chats and competition:


First off, let me say I know that I love java chat gaming. I started it when I needed friends in a place I was very alone. It gave me a break after I was done dealing with reality for a bit. College for me was a hard time, and when I played on places like NB, I had an escape where I could meet people in a manner that was easy and fun. I found people who liked me, cared about me, and still care about me. I met my husband on a java chat. I met people who are now closer to me then anyone I met irl. I started gaming becuase I wanted to have fun and Because I liked the people I met. I didn't start it to become some sort of neo nazi competetor of online gaming sessions.


Where is this coming from folks? Gamers should not be acting like they are on a sports team. We are not the packers versus the Dallas Cowboys. we are a gaming community where we should be working together to find the best possible fun. We should be looking to play places that we are happy and our characters fit well. It shouldn't be about " This chat is better" or this " Chat sucks.". It should be about FUN. Nothing but that. The idea that other St's will intentionally try and steal people from other games is horrible. The idea that we are getting to the point of acting like sleeze bag recruiters is a sign of the worst. We are GAMERS. ALL OF US.. WE SHOULD NOT BE AGAINST EACH OTHER. So..how about this:


Stop insulting st's from other chats.

Stop bad mouthing chats: If you don't like a chat, don't play there, but be mature.

Stop trying to STEAL people from other chats.

ST'S: stop badmouthing other sites games and promoting your own. YOU ARE NOT A BUSINESS OWNER, YOU ARE DOING SOMETHING FREE AND FUN.
To people who have had bad instances on chats: REALIZE THAT IN SOME CASES, IT IS YOUR OWN FAULT. YOU ARE NOT VICTIMS, YOU ARE NOT PRECIOUS FRAGILE ROSES. YOU ARE PEOPLE AND YOU CAN BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR STUPIDITY.

ST's in general: Be mature. Be nice, and DON'T do this if it's not fun for you.
Players: Get a damn life. The game is not everything. real life is the most important thing. do not game for 20 hours a day. Do not stay plugged in all the time. go see your friends, family, kid, movies, whatever once in a while. Go get laid. Laid is good.

Players: Stop insulting other players on Live journals. It's stupid and immature. You know darn well people can see these things....or if your going to do it, at LEAST lock the entry. You are smart enough to do that.

Everyone: Stop being elitist pieces of monkey doo doo. This is NOT an art form. making the stories is an art form in a sense, but rping people online is not something that you can compare to chaucer. Have fun, get wrapped up with the lovely story of whatever, but don't get elitist, It's bad for the soul

Stop taking your personal hates irl out on the chat. It's not fair for the ST's or the players.

People: Stop using the chats to hide from harsh reality. Go deal with it. Go solve it. Be proactive, not ostrages.


To the people who try and do the " chat vs chat "stuff. Stop it. your not cool. your not better then anyone else. Your geeks sitting around amongst your books pretending to be a vampire. Lets not make out to be more then it is.


And..lets have fun again. Lets be cool online and not be vicious. Play nice guys or don't play at all.
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Aug. 21st, 2005 @ 04:11 pm I Am the real Lainse
and to all you assholes...that don't like me *flips off*
and..next time..have better manners then to post it on a live journal when i'm probably going to see it *G*
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Aug. 20th, 2005 @ 02:06 pm .....
Greg Daley is John Constantine...or Vice Versa. Not sure which
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Aug. 14th, 2005 @ 03:00 pm (no subject)
So yeah.....

today I figured this was memorable enough to post. I feel good. really good. I woke up in a hazy state, but I felt happy. I chilled online, reconnected with a few people and just..relaxed. I didn't have to clean the entire apartment today since It was mostly done and it's only morgan coming over. He and ivan are going to war game and i'm going to chill and do my own thing. I think I'llwatch some sort of movie. Ivan might be convinced to go to a health club because I want to get into major shape since I want a tattoo again. i'm tired of feeling fat and stuff. I want to be healthy again. I don't need the PERFECT body but I do need to be in better shape. I'm still thinking about going back to school as soon as work stuff is sorted out and I figure out where we are financially. I just need to know what is going on with a promotion so I know how much money we have. Ivan and I might get to go to Gencon, which would be cool. We can hang out with Anorexiabrownie and Stuntcock. I miss Stuntcock a lot and I want to be there to pet him lately since he's been so bummed. I also just am glad at how supportive people are being even when i'm cranky. It's nice to have people that seem to care..even when sometimes I'm too stupid to notice
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Aug. 10th, 2005 @ 12:21 am Searching for Reason...
Current Mood: pessimistic
So maybe working at a call center IS NOT something I should be setting my life ambitions on, but it's fairly damn frustrating that I know I'm not going to be getting a training position. My intuition is kicking in so I just know that Reid has decided. I don't hate Reid, I just question his logic on his choice. However, More or less, I'm just sucked dry of energy. It's not like I'm sick or anything, I just feel like I don't want to push for anything right now. Not much is really keeping my interest for very long lately; I just feel apathetic and languid. I really would like to get some Zeal back into my life somehow but I am not sure what to do. Bills need to be paid, rent needs to be kept up, and Ivan sure as hell doesn't want to work 60 hours a week just so I can sit in a stupor of depression. I put in for time off in november to try and go to gen con. I hope we get it. I would like a vacation that did not involve me driving 3000 miles, and I would like something that involved me having the ability to get totally toasted and stupid, rather then be the "adult". I think that is part of my problem: I don't feel like I get to be 25. I feel like I'm the one that has to be in charge of everything...keeping the place in shape, keeping bills paid, and then I question: can I trust anyone to have that type of control anymore. If Weasel wanted to take the reins...would I let him. I am not really sure I can relent that much as much as I really don't want the control these days. I just feel burnt out and wasted....and pretty much like crawling into a hole would be nice. I want to feel 25, not 55.


Dammit all to hell
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Jul. 16th, 2005 @ 10:22 am Worst....fucking day...evar
Current Mood: pessimistic
So......this is just a run down of MY FABULOUS FUCKING DAY.

A. wake up to wet bed and pajamas cause the kitty peed or sprayed on me


B. got into a fight with a co worker. Ivan and I couldn't log into our phones becuase they were being used. Ivan logs into phone he found that was not in use, and I realize the computer I had wouldn't work with my login. We try his windows login, it works. I realize that...we had one minute to log into phones before we were late. So I tell him to log into my computer and phone, and I would log into the phone he was using ( phones are essentially our time clocks.). Ivan goes to log out, and I follow to log into the phone, and suddenly we have five black women screaming at us about not taking other people's work statins ( Apparently the computer was being used for training...but the PHONE was not. We tried to explain that we just wanted the phone for five minutes tops...and they would not listen.) Things escalate, I lose my temper, and I get face to face with some bitch. Sup shows up, splits us up, and I have a fun time dealing with an HR thing. I'm not fired or anything, or in trouble, but it fucking sucked.


C. Fucking..stupid..goddamn...verbal warning for not doing service solutions (It's something we are supposed to do in care..which is offer people little services that cost money).



I think it's time to commit suicide with a rusty scapel at this point.


I fucking hate my life
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Jul. 15th, 2005 @ 10:27 pm Blah
Current Mood: blah
So I've determined that I am crazy and probably a malcontent. I've just been grumpy lately. For a clearer explaination, this is what's going on:


Work is hell right now for several reasons.
A. the company is moving..and things are chaotic. there are too many trainess, too many new hires and not enough seats.
B they are trying to force people to change schedules to later saturday schedules. I'm fucking sorry, but I'm willing to work noon till 9 for ivan wed-friday..because I figured it's a good concession. HOWEVER I want ONE fucking day where I get out before 9 o'clock at night and I can do something right out of work. Now because nextel has decided to be moronic and extend hours, they want us to work later. They say that our seniority should keep them from randomly changing our schedules, but im not trusting it.
c. We took on 2.4 percent more call volume for customer care ( nextel help line) becuase another call center closed down. Which means we are constantly having huge call volume for care, and I get randomly put into care without warning, and have the joy of customers screaming at me becuase their phone doesn't work/bill is too high/there's an outage/whatever they desire. I get this for 5 hours and then when welcome (it's a registration thing for nextel) gets busy, they switch me to that, so that leaves me with no down time.
D. My birthday is coming and like it or not, I'm inexplicably depressed about that. I have a feeling that it's going to end up a whole lot of doing nothing becuase everyone is busy or what not. No one seems really interested. I don't know..I suppose I should just get used to it being over looked. Ivan wants to do something and that's nice, but that's about it.
E. I have no idea what is going on with my application for a new position at work. I have a feeling it's being ignored.


so yeah. That is why Traci isn't a happy camper.
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Jul. 12th, 2005 @ 11:52 pm ya just know your going to see one of these concepts on Fox
Current Mood: silly
He's a deeply religious white trash cyborg in a wheelchair. She's a bloodthirsty mute mercenary trying to make a difference in a man's world. They fight crime!

He's an oversexed one-eyed paranormal investigator searching for his wife's true killer. She's a chain-smoking tempestuous archaeologist from aristocratic European stock. They fight crime!

He's a deeply religious Amish shaman looking for a cure to the poison coursing through his veins. She's a tortured Bolivian soap star from a secret island of warrior women. They fight crime!

He's a fast talking pirate cyborg from the 'hood. She's a brilliant extravagent lawyer with only herself to blame. They fight crime!

He's a world-famous day-dreaming farmboy moving from town to town, helping folk in trouble. She's a manipulative psychic Valkyrie looking for love in all the wrong places. They fight crime!


He's a sword-wielding white trash photographer who dotes on his loving old ma. She's a chain-smoking antique-collecting lawyer with a song in her heart and a spring in her step. They fight crime!


He's a maverick white trash paranormal investigator haunted by an iconic dead American confidante She's a sharp-shooting junkie nun on her way to prison for a murder she didn't commit. They fight crime!
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Jul. 10th, 2005 @ 03:42 pm Whodda thunk
You are Frodo Baggins
You are Frodo Baggins!


Lord of the Rings: Which Ringbearer are you?
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Jul. 10th, 2005 @ 02:05 pm New Style
Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: None
I was bored so I decided my Livejournal needed to look better. I think this is a much more improved look though I'm not sure about the parchment color. However I think It's better and less tacky then some of the choices I had.
This week has been a bit better then the last couple. Found out the most likely reason I was feeling like crap lately is the building I was working in has mold! oh yay! Good thing we are moving to a new facility soon.
I've been working on help desk for my call center, which is essentially agents calling me to gripe becuase they don't know how to do something, or sometimes asking legitimate questions. My favorite one so far was the situation where somehow..nextel accomodifications managed to fuck up three accounts at once. I just stared at the screen for a moment and said " Wow. That's impressive." Needless to say, it had to go to a higher authority then Moi.
I also have been *Gasp* working on my writing again. I have nine pages of a novel I've printed in order to edit, and tweak, since I'm trying to settle on a style for this work and I want to be consistant. I am not exactly looking to create the great american/fantasy/punkbeat/ novel. I just want to write something that I like, That other people will like, and is fucking less crappy then some of the stuff that is on the shelves these days.
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Jun. 27th, 2005 @ 05:04 am Flower...penises?
Current Mood: confused
Apparently RPG. net has some interseting stuff. Ivan read a post..that there was oncec a science fiction series...about an alien species of angrogynis boys...with flower penises, that breed with humans to create more ...flower penis boys...and kill out the human race. apparently someone decided this would make a great game...and a good larp.



I am in pain
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Jun. 27th, 2005 @ 03:47 am Nature is great...even in an apartment complex
Current Mood: dorky
we have a cute little baby birdy living outside our door in a next! it's a cute little gray baby! Hooha
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Jun. 23rd, 2005 @ 12:11 am (no subject)
Current Mood: distressed
So I haven't written in a while..but I needed to go off on something.

I have a co worker named brock. Brock(or Brawk)..is annoying. To everyone. He has a high pitched voice, only talks to criticize, and just does..dumb things. He can do his job alright, but he also does DUMB things that get him in bad bad spots with customers. I've heard him have to calm plenty of customers down from problem he's caused by saying the wrong thing.

Brock and I don't get along. I used to argue with him, violently, but now I've been trying to back off. ignore him and just do my job. Problem is, he keeps just..bugging me. He'll interject when I'm talking to someone else. Once when two people were talking about grand theft auto, he interupted them to say " I don't understand why you play violent video games." Oh, and he stutters. Which is GREAT at a call center job. Brock likes to think he is somehow...morally superior, and intellectually superior. He makes me want to be the worst person in the world. He's a vegetarian, so he makes me want to chew steaks in front of him. He's a tree hugger, and he makes me want to just..burn forests. I'm fine with him believing what he wants to believe in, but he always has to shove it in people's faces. Always.

Tonight I was on a pretty annoying call, AFTER Nine ( we are supposed to be off the clock at night) and I was trying to GENTLY push the customer along so that I wasn't on a half hour call. Brock hears me and goes " Oh well Traci, I don't care if it's after nine, you have to have good customer service!" and...I flipped. I flipped the fuck out. while the customer was babbling to her daughter, I put myself on mute and said " MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS" ( i Didn't yell, I just said it in a *tone*). He walks off. I was near tears while doing the call. The customer was thankful for my help and sounded happy, and as I logged off, I was sobbing. I talked to my supervisor and such, and he'll talk to brock but im so confused. am I wrong feeling this way? I remember being the person everyone hated and picked on. I have tried to defend him ..sometimes...but It's just like " WHY THE FUCK CAN'T HE JUST STOP BUGGING ME?"


I don't know how I should feel..and I'm just kinda upset...
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Aug. 9th, 2004 @ 10:09 pm You might be a gamer if
You might be a gamer if :

You roll dice during class to see if you can answer the questions.

Your diet consists mainly of cheetos, doritos, and some form of soda.

you've drank 5 cans of Jolt in order to stay up all night for a gaming session.

You can construct entire soundtracks to your favorite game.

you have character theme songs that you hum from time to time.

The most emotional relationship you've been in lately has been between your vampire and his/her ghoul.

You call in sick to work to game.

You can recite all the rules to every game you've ever played, but you have no idea what your country or states national anthem is.


You research a period in history only because you need it for your character history.

Your characters lost their virginity before you did.

if you've ever woken in the middle of the night because your sleeping on a four sided die.

When you buy painting supplies, it has nothing to do with house/furniture/ or a canvas.

The only interest you have in fashion deals with soldiers uniforms or black trenchcoats.

If you know what "level" your school teacher is.

You don't refer to your children as being 12 years old, but rather as being a level 12 child.

You've debated that Demons and garou can indeed have a loving relationship.

you've debated against demons and garou having a loving relationship.(or kinfolk and ghouls or hunters and monsters or vampires and whatever)

you think White wolf is either god or the devil.

You took a physics class only so you could use your rotes most effectively.

If you can argue late into the night about the spirituality of werewolf the apocolypse..but have no idea what the first book of the bible is.

You can figure out complicated dice modifying systems but you have no idea how to do geometry.

When you guy a car, you ask what it's armour value is.

When you get into a fight, you claim that your only taking half bashing, rounded down.

You might be a gamer if You've gone on a family trip only to get to a convention.


You know what the hell I'm talking about.

You might be a gamer if you've effectively used mythology or historical perspective or religious perspective from a game in an academic class.

You might be a gamer if you randomly scream " Brocolli Trees" and your friends understand.

you might be a gamer if you can out goth goths while being in character.

You might be a gamer if you can out geek geeks.

if you've ever worn chainmail on a bus ride.

If for you, boffing does not mean sex.
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